5/7/25

the end is near.....

u guys. i got 11 DAYS OF SCHOOL LEFT ....... regular school at that ! then after that i am heading to college n doin things there n whatever ! im genuinely going to make sure that i spend the rest of my days having a good time with my junior friends as much as i possibly can before i leave them, ouuuuuhhhhhh sobssssss im gonna be crying i already KNOW. its jus crazy how like. im not gonna be going back to that school ever again.... my whole life is probably gonna change.... do u even have any idea how much that scares me . i am one of those who doesnt wanna enter adulthood at all cause i still feel like im 14 yrs old MENTALLY and then stopped developing from there fr . like o my god im jus gonna get thrown into the busy world of adult life and start fighting for employment and looking for cars and paying taxes and trying not to die wth !!! meanwhile in reality the only thing i wanna do in life is draw play video games hang out w my friends n have fun honestly thats all i rlly need . but then i forget that i need to have bigger goals in life than that which requires CHANGE, and i fawking hate change . anyway yea pls wish me luck u guys 🙏🙏🙏🔥🔥

4/26/25

MOMONGA PLUSHIE !!

I GOT TO GO TO THE MALL AND I WENT INSIDE MINISO AND I FOUND ALL THE CHIIKAWA STUFF !!!! i was SO happy dude look at the shelves it was filled to the brim wit those critters !!!

THEN i ofc got momonga since he is my favorite critter of them all (along w hachiware !)

i only rlly got him and a cinnamoroll figurine . it was $41 in total. iam so happy with my purchase tho i can finally have momonga live with me . i am now at peace....... 🙏🙏🙏(reminder to add him to my plushie room page one of these days !!!)

4/18/25

friends i'll miss

school has been super good these days, it feels like being a senior is almost stress-free because i barely got anything crazy to do unlike freshman and sophomore year !! and on top of that i just have so much fun w my friends when i see them, i swear it feels like i look forward to school way more than how i did in the past cause my friends this time are actually genuine, good friends, so i truly can have a pleasant time with them. elementary school and middle school were just filled to the brim with people i know i wouldnt get along with AND i was super quiet at the time due to my extreme social anxiety . now i definitely am so much better. im way calmer and i am proud of myself for being able to change in that way, life feels so much more freeing not having the mindset of constantly thinking that ppl around me care abt every little thing i do u know ? i feel much less paranoid than i was . it is amazing .
on the topic of my friends, there are two of them i am closest to and they're both juniors. i honestly dread the fact that they're gonna b spending a whole year without seeing me at school since i'll be graduating this year :( i know i'll definitely be hanging out with them outside of school after i graduate but it genuinely hurts to think abt how like . i wont be seeing them in class everyday anymore. its bittersweet because i dont like school at all so at the same time its like bye mf im not coming back 2 this place ANYMORE but im gonna MISS MY FRIENDS 💔💔💔💔💔
its cause like !!!! these two r so close to me and they understand me and they get me so well , it feels like leaving a part of me at school so it hurts. im gonna do my absolute best to keep in contact w them okay, im determined. even if i meet new ppl in the future its jus not gonna be the same as being with those two critters, so yaaaaaa i am gonna get emotional graduating for SURE ........... pls wish me luck o my god. i wish they could like graduate w me or something man wth !!!!!!

4/12/25

life is improving !

hai its been a FAT minute !! ive been pretty busy w school n such so i havent really been coding . however i have been using my free time to draw a whole buncha stuff which is why my art page is more updated :0)
as for how school is going....... lemme tell u something. its been ROUGH . i am slowly trying to drop a very toxic friend who always has me drained, and now im hanging out with much better people during lunchtime . i jus dont wanna deal with the burden of having a drama-fueled friend who has me on edge all the time during my last year of high school, that is literally the last thing i want so im trying to make an effort to have life be less stressful u know ? and the good news is that its working :] its rlly hard to let go though, especially because we've been friends for about 3 years now? but im finally trying to put my foot down, i know its partially my fault for letting his constant negativity stress me out for that long but it is better late than never oka . because of this, school has been way less stressful and overall i am happier, which is exactly what i wanted !!

4/1/25

recovering :3

okay so . i got sick w a cold on friday after having a senior art show for my school ......... i think someone may have passed it onto me ...... (disgustang) IDk but i at least mostly recovered from it now !!! it felt horrible on saturday n sunday but monday is when i decided to take a day off of school, then i came back on tuesday and am happy that im feelign sososo much better and am loving life :]]]] yesterday was april fools. i decided to trick my friends by saying i wasnt coming to school again bc of me being sick (i was actually feeling better and wanted to attend school) so guess what one of them fell for my evil scheme . i popped up right behind him "APRIL FOOLS" loud as hell !!!(he forgot what day it was) good good times heehee
so ya basically i was sick n thats why the website hasnt been touched in a couple of days !! not that anyone has noticed i dont think . i usually make small changes now. Ya

3/23/25

spring break over .

its like 12am as im typing this on a damn SCHOOL NIGHT but . iam quite anxious for school tomorrow . IDKKK man i literally am anxious all the time and idk why im so worried cause like ......i got two more months of school left and i'll be finished..... all i gotta do is keep my grades up and then ill be amazing !! maybe im only anxious cause its jus been a whole week of me not being at school and i gotta get used to my regular schedule again . ouuhhh idk . but im just so glad that i was rlly able to switch one of my classes so i could be with my junior friends for my final year, otherwise this year rlly would have been DEPRESSING. i genuinely dont know what would have happened if i hadnt locked tf in to change my class at the beginning of the year, so im proud of myself and i get to be w my friends who i have so much fun being around wit :333 definitely making sure that i hang out w them after school ends tho ofc !! i may only have two months of school left (im gonna cry) BUT that doesnt mean the last time im seeing my junior friends will be at school 🔥🔥🔥we WILL be hanging out.

3/21/25

Ver awesome friday

Hello chat . today was a pleasant friday, i got to go to some pottery and painting place called Picasso's Palette ? where u can grab a ceramic base of your choice on the shelves and paint them, then they'll kiln it once ur finished and will let you know within a week's notice to come and pick it up :3 i actually grabbed a lil hamster (who was apparently named Nibbles) i thought he looked a lot like Hamtaro so i painted it his colors !!

i rlly shouldve gotten more angles. this not even the final product tho it still has to be kilned ! overall very nice day, im actually looking forward to going back to school jus so i can see my friends again :0) o yeah and theres an early release day next wednesday HELLYEA

3/19/25

NEW BLOG PAGE !!

so guess what i have created a whole new blog page !! i feel like its a lot better in a way cause u can actully find posts ive made easier via the dropdown menu above :3 i can also have my statuscafe be more visible here than how it is tucked away in the corner of my homepage kinda . so overall big big improvement yippeeee cant wait to use this more often ^__^

3/17/25

spring break started !!

spring break !!! if im bein honest i dont rlly like breaks. KINDA .... only cause i feel like once i spend so much time being around my family more than my friends i go insane a little . it is great to have a break from school in general but for some reason i start missing my friends so muhc and i dont rlly hang out w them on breaks cause they r all introverted just like me fr ......but i feel so scared to propose the idea of a hangout IDK whyyy the way we r wired is so interesting. however !! despite me complaining i do enjoy staying inside solely to do cat commissions and draw wonderful bug yuri and play games w my friends (iam unemployed in a way) 🔥🔥🔥🔥as for today my plans are to go on a walk w my mom and finish some cat commissions ^__^

if anyone wants to commission me !!! look at this image. that is my cat commission sheet !! if u are interested in commissioning then please consult me at twitter (prefered) or via email in the form that is located in my credits page ! and u will not regret because i draw those kitties very very cute and marshmallow like ! sorry i had 2 advertise a lil.