this is where i YAP !!! talkin abt personal life events and things ive done and whatnot! it can get a bit venty here sometimes, as well as mention sum sensitive topics so fair warning 4 that yeaaa

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5/29/25

graduation + trip to new york !!


so guess what !!! im gonna be going on a road trip to new york cause i'll be visiting my family there, mostly my dad's side. and, my grandma's apartment building is right across the one i used to live in so i'll definitely be getting a strong sense of nostalgia ! i rlly miss all my cousins and aunts and grandparents so im genuinely looking forward to seeing them :3
i think im gonna start heading there on sunday which is the day after my graduation.... on saturday ..... u guys i gotta wake up at 4AM for that damn graduation . this bs cannot continue . im gonna b so tired when i get back home hooooooh godddd 💔💔💧💧💧
my aunt is the one whos coming down to see my graduation and also pick me and my little sister up so that we can drive all the way over to new york ! its gonna b a longgggg weekend . im not looking forward to the dreadfully long periods of travelling and waking up early n everythig that i dont normally do .......... pls pray for me 😭😭😭
also, iDK if im gonna bring my laptop with me or not but if i dont then i wont be updating my site for probably a month !! theyre planning for me and my sis to stay a month in nyc so im gonna be away for quite a while ..... but when i come back. things will b great again . TRUST

5/26/25

goin thru it


basically now im getting withdrawals from not seeing my friends believe it or not ! its rlly weird. on top of that, having off from school for a long period of time makes me go insane because i stay inside with my family and they sometimes drive me crazy. so what imma try to do this summer is definitely look for a job so i can be EMPLOYED , make money and not be useless and bored inside my cave !!! im tired of having a repetitive schedule being cooped up in the house doing commissions lik no . i need to be out there somewhere doing something that gives me a break from my family . yes i love my family but like . do u ever get tired of them fast. thas whats happeneing to me right now.
and of course i will be making plans w my friends over the summer to hang out when im free :3 i cant wait for that cause we wont have limitations to us talking or anything stopping us other than curfews and whatever !! no bells ringing or teachers telling us to go to class because we r finally gonna be FREE

5/22/25

we finally said goodbye


yesterday i was an absolute emotional MESS .

i literally was filled with so much sorrow u guys. i had my last class with my two closest friends who are juniors, we talked abt our future plans after high school, i said goodbye to them since seniors leave earlier than the underclassmen. we took so many photos with my friend's polaroid camera and i got to keep the photographs. we hugged each other so much and we talked about how the emotions are definitely going to hit us later on after school and ohhhh did it hit me last night ! i bawled my eyes out looking at the photographs and it just fills me with an utter sadness. i really really wished they were in the same grade as me.
those two mean a whole lot to me because they truly helped me to gradually start being myself around people at school, specifically around them. i couldnt be more thankful to have such amazing genuine friends and ive gotten to express to them how much i appreciate our friendship. i know im gonna hang out with them over the summer but its the idea of me not sharing classes w them anymore and they told me how upset they are that theyre not gonna see me next year like god that makes me VERY sad.... i cannot believe i reached the end of high school !!!!😭😭😭😭
my friend wrote in my yearbook a very nice farewell message about him not knowing how hes gonna make it through next year without me and that im the only one who he can really be himself with. i seriously could not keep my composure okay. i cried so hard. i especially feel the same way with him and im just so overjoyed that we are really comfortable with each other, i feel like friends that truly love and care about you like that make life genuinely worth living. now ! im gonna go cry again. but other than that, im glad i finally reached the end of high school and im gonna graduate next weekend and hopefully my family from new york comes over !!! im rlly looking forward to that :3

5/17/25

what a week


okay this week felt crazy knowing in the back of my head that this was rlly my last FULL week at this school and then after wednesday i'll be gone ........... only THREE DAYS !!! how do i feel ? i have no clue. i feel slightly sad because i know i made so many pleasant memories around here, making friends and having fun and all, but i also have so many unpleasant memories too so its rlly a huge mix of emotions im feeling..... the environment of this school in general immediately gives me anxiety so im actually glad im leaving ahaha . not glad at all abt leaving my friends tho.... i wish them luck cause they r spending one more year here!!
also finals are coming up next week on monday and tuesday, then on wednesday its my last full regular day with all my classes and im gonna make sure i enjoy it as much as i can. hopefully i can kinda vlog it all with my friends cause that'll be so fun <:) i may have done something crazy on thursday .

5/7/25

the end is near.....


u guys. i got 11 DAYS OF SCHOOL LEFT ....... regular school at that ! then after that i am heading to college n doin things there n whatever ! im genuinely going to make sure that i spend the rest of my days having a good time with my junior friends as much as i possibly can before i leave them, ouuuuuhhhhhh sobssssss im gonna be crying i already KNOW. its jus crazy how like. im not gonna be going back to that school ever again.... my whole life is probably gonna change.... do u even have any idea how much that scares me . i am one of those who doesnt wanna enter adulthood at all cause i still feel like im 14 yrs old MENTALLY and then stopped developing from there fr . like o my god im jus gonna get thrown into the busy world of adult life and start fighting for employment and looking for cars and paying taxes and trying not to die wth !!! meanwhile in reality the only thing i wanna do in life is draw play video games hang out w my friends n have fun honestly thats all i rlly need . but then i forget that i need to have bigger goals in life than that which requires CHANGE, and i fawking hate change . anyway yea pls wish me luck u guys 🙏🙏🙏🔥🔥

4/26/25

MOMONGA PLUSHIE !!


I GOT TO GO TO THE MALL AND I WENT INSIDE MINISO AND I FOUND ALL THE CHIIKAWA STUFF !!!! i was SO happy dude look at the shelves it was filled to the brim wit those critters !!!

THEN i ofc got momonga since he is my favorite critter of them all (along w hachiware !)

i only rlly got him and a cinnamoroll figurine . it was $41 in total. iam so happy with my purchase tho i can finally have momonga live with me . i am now at peace....... 🙏🙏🙏(reminder to add him to my plushie room page one of these days !!!)

4/18/25

friends i'll miss


school has been super good these days, it feels like being a senior is almost stress-free because i barely got anything crazy to do unlike freshman and sophomore year !! and on top of that i just have so much fun w my friends when i see them, i swear it feels like i look forward to school way more than how i did in the past cause my friends this time are actually genuine, good friends, so i truly can have a pleasant time with them. elementary school and middle school were just filled to the brim with people i know i wouldnt get along with AND i was super quiet at the time due to my extreme social anxiety . now i definitely am so much better. im way calmer and i am proud of myself for being able to change in that way, life feels so much more freeing not having the mindset of constantly thinking that ppl around me care abt every little thing i do u know ? i feel much less paranoid than i was . it is amazing .
on the topic of my friends, there are two of them i am closest to and they're both juniors. i honestly dread the fact that they're gonna b spending a whole year without seeing me at school since i'll be graduating this year :( i know i'll definitely be hanging out with them outside of school after i graduate but it genuinely hurts to think abt how like . i wont be seeing them in class everyday anymore. its bittersweet because i dont like school at all so at the same time its like bye mf im not coming back 2 this place ANYMORE but im gonna MISS MY FRIENDS 💔💔💔💔💔
its cause like !!!! these two r so close to me and they understand me and they get me so well , it feels like leaving a part of me at school so it hurts. im gonna do my absolute best to keep in contact w them okay, im determined. even if i meet new ppl in the future its jus not gonna be the same as being with those two critters, so yaaaaaa i am gonna get emotional graduating for SURE ........... pls wish me luck o my god. i wish they could like graduate w me or something man wth !!!!!!

4/12/25

life is improving !


hai its been a FAT minute !! ive been pretty busy w school n such so i havent really been coding . however i have been using my free time to draw a whole buncha stuff which is why my art page is more updated :0)
as for how school is going....... lemme tell u something. its been ROUGH . i am slowly trying to drop a very toxic friend who always has me drained, and now im hanging out with much better people during lunchtime . i jus dont wanna deal with the burden of having a drama-fueled friend who has me on edge all the time during my last year of high school, that is literally the last thing i want so im trying to make an effort to have life be less stressful u know ? and the good news is that its working :] its rlly hard to let go though, especially because we've been friends for about 3 years now? but im finally trying to put my foot down, i know its partially my fault for letting his constant negativity stress me out for that long but it is better late than never oka . because of this, school has been way less stressful and overall i am happier, which is exactly what i wanted !!

4/1/25

recovering :3


okay so . i got sick w a cold on friday after having a senior art show for my school ......... i think someone may have passed it onto me ...... (disgustang) IDk but i at least mostly recovered from it now !!! it felt horrible on saturday n sunday but monday is when i decided to take a day off of school, then i came back on tuesday and am happy that im feelign sososo much better and am loving life :]]]] yesterday was april fools. i decided to trick my friends by saying i wasnt coming to school again bc of me being sick (i was actually feeling better and wanted to attend school) so guess what one of them fell for my evil scheme . i popped up right behind him "APRIL FOOLS" loud as hell !!!(he forgot what day it was) good good times heehee
so ya basically i was sick n thats why the website hasnt been touched in a couple of days !! not that anyone has noticed i dont think . i usually make small changes now. Ya

3/23/25

spring break over .


its like 12am as im typing this on a damn SCHOOL NIGHT but . iam quite anxious for school tomorrow . IDKKK man i literally am anxious all the time and idk why im so worried cause like ......i got two more months of school left and i'll be finished..... all i gotta do is keep my grades up and then ill be amazing !! maybe im only anxious cause its jus been a whole week of me not being at school and i gotta get used to my regular schedule again . ouuhhh idk . but im just so glad that i was rlly able to switch one of my classes so i could be with my junior friends for my final year, otherwise this year rlly would have been DEPRESSING. i genuinely dont know what would have happened if i hadnt locked tf in to change my class at the beginning of the year, so im proud of myself and i get to be w my friends who i have so much fun being around wit :333 definitely making sure that i hang out w them after school ends tho ofc !! i may only have two months of school left (im gonna cry) BUT that doesnt mean the last time im seeing my junior friends will be at school 🔥🔥🔥we WILL be hanging out.

3/21/25

Ver awesome friday

Hello chat . today was a pleasant friday, i got to go to some pottery and painting place called Picasso's Palette ? where u can grab a ceramic base of your choice on the shelves and paint them, then they'll kiln it once ur finished and will let you know once ur thing is finished :3

3/15/25

spring break started !!


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